Transient euphoria
This is supposed to be titled random things that keeps me going but I randomly remembered that Paul Graham accused us of not understanding basic diction and described words that exists in our quotidian interactions as A.I generated.
Anyways.
I have spent the last few weeks or months meandering in revolving circles; at least until last week. One would think that given how cruel 2023 was, 2024 will be a filled with roses; alas, life had other plans.
The universe must think I’m a joke at this point.
Sometimes, I want to reply a rejection mail and say- can’t you see how amazing I am, are you blind? but I smile as the umpteenth rejection email enter my inbox. The ones I loathe the most are those that come in at 1:00am when I am deep into k-drama. How dare you snap me back to reality with your brutal words?
This post isn’t to rant about my woes; we ain’t doing that today; as the supposed title, it is to actually spotlight lovely things that have kept me going.
I.
Kind words and compliments:
I love recieving kind words from my friends, and acquaintances and strangers on internets’ streets. Thinking of it, they ain’t exactly strangers, are they? People who read your work, and reply, and you read their reply, and you reply too ain’t exactly strangers, are they? Maybe we need a new word between strangers and acquaintances, maybe, fans?
I love when somene compliments my medium post like Peju did. I love when people share feedback about my newsletter; it’s the cutest thing ever. You mean you enjoy reading the ramblings I send out at 23:59 every Sunday? Wow! I am honored.
II.
Getting recognised for my work: Since I have been out of 9–5, I have focused a lot on my passion, and spent a lot of time and energy investing in female football and I am always in awe when someone recognises this. Either is a feedback about an article or a shout-out on a post; those little things mean a whole lot to me. They melt my heart, literally.
I find it really fascinating that everywhere I have worked, I have led indelible impact, it is humbling, it is awe-inspiring.
III.
My friends showing up for me:
Friends are like home; a warm embrace, a soothing hug, a safespace beckoning your name, calling you to rest. My friends are home.
I made a tweet a while ago about how this is the period I have relied on my friends the most, and they have come through for me, all the time.
I have the best of friends and they have kept me going, it is beautiful, really and I am grateful for them.
IV:
Books and Kdrama: The latter more than the former to be very honest. I love the delulu that comes with kdrama and the adrenaline rush from waiting ; waiting to see what happens next, to see if the evil friend will be caught, if love will win, if the two high school lovers will fall in love again, the thrill…of waiting.
I wonder how many times we have to wait , in life. Is it thrilling just in series , is it burdening? Is it overwhelming?
How do you feel when you wait?
P:S- I wrote this because I made a random tweet to write at least once every month and because I promised Peju I will write a post before the month winds up.
How are you? How is your year going? Are you waiting too?
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